Today I felt a strange emotion that I found hard to identify.
I was checking my texts at the end of a music lesson when I discovered that my mum had agreed to come to school and give me my swimming bag. I had been worrying all day about this as my swimming teacher is really strict and she doesn’t like me. I was dreading my swimming lesson as I thought it was unlikely mum would agree as she has not done so in the past.
This was partly why I thought that the emotion I felt after reading the test was RELIEF, as that is what would be the logical emotion to feel.
I will now describe exactly how I felt.
There was a significant amount of energy rushing through me, but I wasn’t excited. I felt slightly happy, but also slightly anxious and not at all calm. It was a generally overwhelming feeling.
I would like to point out that the only reason she came was that she was going to pick me up on that day anyway, so it was only half an hour taken away from her time as swimming was the last lesson.
I felt really bad as I knew how much mum needs to work, and how valuable her time is.
Unfortunately, mum sort of (completely) defeated the point by dropping the swimming bag off at the PE office, which meant that the teacher saw and knew that I had left the bag at home and my mum had to bring it in for me.
This caused me to feel really rather embarrassed.
And also slightly pointless.